Do you sometimes feel your life is in limbo? I know you do, we all do at one time or another. Over the years I've felt it and right now I'm feeling it. Yes, I am. I'm just feeling it.
Don't take me wrong, I'm not just lazing and feeling strung out, I'm busy doing busy things ... things that really don't matter in the scheme of posterity or prosperity, but things that make me happy right now. Like having a cup of hot chocolate, petting my cats, reorganizing my kitchen, looking at gardening mags, moving home accessories from one place to another, admiring my collections in the curio cabinets, checking out supplies, spot cleaning, searching Craigslist for an electric piano (feeling the urge to get another one, not now, later), checking out Port Isaac and Weymouth UK on the Internet (trip coming up in March 2014), and it goes on and on. Just busy busy stuff, not really important. You see what I mean?
So maybe I'm doing all right, okay? For what is there other than this moment in time? Yesterday's gone, tomorrow may never come ... is that how the saying goes? It's today, this moment is all we can surely count on ... we may drop dead in the next moment.
Now I do have to say, it's been less stressful being in this frame of mind, being in the present, attending to unimportant things as it strikes. My soul feels lighter. So maybe that's what the teachings of Zen are saying, right?
But I do know my limbo-ness will come to an abrupt end soon, the time is coming when I will have to start producing again, will have to publish those last two books scheduled for this year, and will have to finish writing and edit my own books (two by December), then will have to market and sell sell sell!!!! Yep, that's part of my life too.
But today, I feel good. My life is in limbo and I'm liking it.
And contrary to what Bill Joy said, "Well, limbo is not a good place to be," I have to disagree, it's a good place for me, I need the rest.